When Bad Outweighs Good
Perhaps it’s just having to put up with my parents for a weekend, but I had a short fuse moment the other day with League of Legends. I recanted my statement about not running into the jerks of the game a while ago, and since then I’ve simply harbored myself in the safer haven of intermediate (safer in that there’s only half as many people to be jerks). One of the final straws for me I wrote about before, the game where two people absolutely refused to compromise on who got to play what spot, and as a result, our team was wrecked by the other team, which was working together.
Through all this, I’ve stayed in the games. It’s Riot’s prerogative to keep players in games, because leaving would unfairly benefit one side or the other. For that reason, if you’re teamed with someone who’s a terrible person, harassing you, and tearing you down, you can be punished if you just walk away. There was a bit of a hullabaloo at PAX about this, in fact, when at the “How do we improve the community?” forum that Riot ran, the first audience speaker went on a tirade about that very policy. The gentleman stood at the mic far longer than was comfortable for anyone in the room, and in fact began getting booed at one point, though I and a few others shut that down.
You see, even when I was unhappy with this dude’s behavior (which quite literally prevented me from getting to ask my question, as I was next when time ran out and that guy had talked for like 10 minutes), I tried to keep order, keep things polite, keep things working.
It’s with that in mind that I dropped a LoL match today. I’ve never done it before, as I’ve said. I always stuck it through regardless of the jerks or terrible situations that might have occurred. At first, perhaps I saw it through out of a sense of fair play. That was replaced by a sense of duty, as I had made a social agreement to play with these people even if I ended up hating them. Then that was replaced by a sense of fear; I didn’t want to be punished by Riot for a bad behavior. In the end, though, the negativity became greater than any positive or negative force tying me to the game.
And today was really no big deal. My wife and I were playing, we called top, no one argued, so after we waited a bit we locked in. The other players locked in as mid and bottom. Then the last person picked a jungler and locked in. A jungle with a solo bot; it doesn’t work, not even in AI games – especially in AI games, since the solo ranged bottom will be up against at least 2 ranged characters, most likely. I grumbled a bit when we loaded in but moved to bottom to support them – I was still willing to work it out and be a team player. I pointed that out in chat, and rather than getting any kind of thanks, which I didn’t expect – or even silence, which I would have been fine with, I was given shit about it. It wasn’t even the jungler, whose opinion I couldn’t have cared less about, since he was clearly a selfish jerk anyway; it was one of the other players, the mid (the bottom was more than happy to have me, since I arrived right as the first reaming took place and quite literally saved his life with a shield).
So I dropped. I don’t really care about the consequences; my fatigue with social problems in games has become that great. I doubt there’ll be any, anyway, since it’s my first “offense,” but even if there are, quite frankly, fuck it. I’m tired of having jerks determine whether or not I can have a pleasant experience in games. LoL was brought into my gaming rotation with the idea of getting a 5 person team with which to play. I apparently can’t, so whatever happens, happens.
This is very reminiscent of the time in WoW I got kicked from a ZF run because I stopped pulling due to a mage who was needing on everything. I tried to kick him, which failed, and in return I was kicked. When the inmates run the asylum, no one’s safe, ever, and while I’m sure I’ll play more LoL in the future, I just don’t think I have it in me any more to fight. Jerks will be jerks, and they can be so without me.
Stubborn (and tired)