I scrapped what I was going to write today and instead decided to write a more personal post about how I’ve been feeling in WoW. Surely this has been brought on by the vast number of other bloggers doing so, but I’ve been trying to define my feelings to myself, and have been having a hard time doing so.
At this point, given a choice between playing WoW and doing something else, I’ve been choosing a lot of doing something else. I’ve been reading a lot, mostly books I’ve read before (if that gives any indication of how I feel). I’ve known I was feeling this way since before the server transfer, which was a last-ditch effort to revive my interest in WoW. It worked for a while, since leveling was such a struggle that it took my mind of the general state of things.
What it really comes down to is that I have always played WoW with my friends, and as their interest wanes (as does their play time), so does mine. I played a good bit last week with my wife and my buddy, but this week I’ve hardly logged on at all; the few times I have, no one I know has been on, so I’ve just logged off.
This is not to say anything about me being “done” with WoW. I don’t think I am by a long shot, but I’m certainly in a trough at the moment, waiting to crest the next wave. I need to get back into raiding, though I don’t know that I really want to. I think once I do, I’ll feel better about it, but at this point, I have no reason to farm, for Engineering really has no repeated recipes to build, I have no reason to do dungeons, because I’m basically raid ready, I have no reason to level another toon, because I’ve leveled on very recently, I have no reason to play the auction house, because I’m pretty well off financially, and I have no reason to do anything else, for that matter, if there is anything other than raiding (yes, PvP, but I’ve been there, done that, too, and have no interest in it at the moment).
That leaves me with no goals, and thus no real reason to play unless it’s just to spend time with my friends.
So I’ll go, now, and eat lunch and watch one, then probably two or three episodes of How I Met your Mother on, yes, Lifetime of all channels, which I don’t even particularly like, and then think about playing WoW, log on, see no one I know, and go take a 2 hour nap until it’s time to get up and go to work. This has been the shape of my days for weeks now, barring my “Spring Break” week that wasn’t.
Just thinking about all that depresses me somewhat and makes me WoW-avoidant, which adds to the cycle, and without playing WoW, I’m finding it hard to blog on the topic, which makes me more avoidant, which led me to scrapping today’s bigger, more universal topic for this smaller, less meaningful one. That said, tomorrow, I’ll post more on the overall feeling of malaise in WoW when I’ve had some more time to think about it. Today, though, it was scrapped to tell you about my general malaise.
To all of you out there still enjoying WoW; I envy you. I simply don’t know what to do with the time not playing WoW has granted me. I wish I knew what to do to rebrighten WoW days, though I suspect raiding’s it. I just need to get raiding, then.
Stubborn (who’s not particularly looking forward to watching HIMYM for an hour or two)